I'm currently trying to work on being more positive. This summer has been crazy at work and the stress has really kept me down. The past few weeks I was starting to finally feel some of that second trimester energy, which is good considering I'm almost into the third trimester. Then last week I kind of plummeted again. I was just so exhausted from work. Saturday night I couldn't sleep and that led to all kinds of questions in my mind. I spent almost two hours crying and then being mad at myself for letting my emotions get the best of me. I just kept wondering if Lucy was born to another family and reliving the guilt of her passing.
Last night started out great. I was exhausted, but in a pretty good mood. Then something just snapped and I became so angry. Poor Casey was trying to be nice and get me things and I just felt like he was giving me an attitude so I lost it. I ended up staying up late and waking up all achy this morning. At some point in the midst of my shower this morning, I realized that my being negative isn't helping anything. In fact, being negative is taking so much more energy than being positive does. I am so blessed to have a great family, a job, another baby on the way, and that we were not hit like many families when Casey's job was eliminated.
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*Emily* has left a new comment on your post "Positivity":
Sometimes you just have to let yourself cry. Nothing to get mad at yourself for. When I was pregnant, I sobbed at the slightest thing. I'm pretty sure Mike thought that I had lost it when I started crying at the kids' cartoons. I found Toy Story 2 particularly sad. ;)
The raging hormones of pregnancy can make you feel crazy. They made me exhausted. I popped her out around 7am and felt ready to go by that afternoon. It was almost like my body knew that I would have so much to do after she came, so it physically kept me from doing ANYTHING for 9 months.
You're a strong woman. You'll make it! :)
Em
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